It is still winter coat weather some days, despite what the calendar says. When the sunny days come, we convert that sunshine immediately (greedily) and store it deep inside for use later on the less sunny ones. Now that I am in my 40s, when summer comes, I just drop everything. My need for food/eating goes down, my tolerance for drama expires and as long as I have toast or bananas every once in a while, the summer light and heat is enough to keep me going. It boils down to needing less when there is heat. I need less all year round, I realize, but the winter has me confused since I still need heating oil and insulation. Sitting on a beach eating an apple and emptying my mind. Playing a board game until I cannot play it anymore. Chatting by a fire. That's it.