Counting and measuring time is a relative thing no matter who you are. Even though I don't always realize it, I'm sure my internal clock is actually extremely regimented. However, my version of how fast or slow the seconds and hours are being meted out is constantly being amended and altered. My counting of time most definitely gets pushed through a sieve in a crisis and denatures in times of uncertainty and boredom. In my kids, time counting has been an activity that they have been grappling with throughout their short lives. My son is at a stage where he is constantly testing new vocabulary words and theories to describe time passing and he uses them rather experimentally. I was a little shocked by how quickly my daughter passed through a phase of not really knowing what day it was to correcting me. Currently, the advent calendar has been re-named a Chocolate counter which I think suits it perfectly. Of course, with his evolving sense of measurement my son demanded that he be given "not that many, but another many" chocolate windows, so, at this rate, Christmas will be here before I know it.
I won't visit you this month. You won't call. I will raid your garden and you won't get any of the vegetables. I will make plans without telling you about them. We'll go to the store and not buy you one single thing. Whole books will be read and I will not tell you which ones. I will watch movies and not inform you. The nasturiums will ripen. Last month was different. I changed my schedule and took time off work to be with you. I dropped all kinds of plans for us to be together. You sent me messages, I received them. I picked up food that I thought you would like at the store and sent you pictures of every beautiful thing I saw. I sang with you. We watched the Great Canadian Baking Show. You chose the recipe for the garlic scape pesto and gave me instructions for making the gooseberry jam. I am in August without you. You are in July.
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